Since making my move to Florida my life has been continuously blessed with moments of synchronicity and serendipity. I had no idea what my life would be like when I moved, I had only trust. Trust in my life, my decisions, and more importantly, trust in the universe.
Growing up, I thought that I would live that same one track life that everyone else seemed to be living. Be a good kid, go to school, get good grades, go to college, get better grades, go to grad school, get the best grades, and then you might be someone. And growing up, I really didn't see anything wrong with that. I was inducted into the national honor society, captain of my high school ice hockey team, had good friends, got into good schools with both athletic and academic scholarships.. life was good.
I went to Franklin Pierce University of New Hampshire to play on their women's ice hockey team. That's how I made my decision because at 18 the only thing I knew I really loved was hockey. I majored in pre-physical therapy because at 18 it seemed like an awesome career. At 18 I didn't know what the world had to offer me. I knew my family, my friends, what I'd seen on TV, heard on the radio, or saw in my safe little town.
In my one year of college, I became very distracted. I was just barely making it through my classes, I wasn't playing to full capability, I wasn't caring. I wasn't caring because quite frankly, I didn't care. None of it made sense to me. I didn't see the point in going to school for something I didn't love. I had no attachment to my major other than I liked science, working with people, and the idea of lots of money. WOMP WOMP WOMP. How sad. So when I went home for the summer it didn't take me long to decide I was NOT going back. I thought that there just had to be some other way, I couldn't imagine waiting for a piece of paper to start my life. So for two years I worked my butt off between 2 and sometimes 3 jobs to save up money. I wasn't even sure what I was saving for, I just knew I needed to figure something else out.
The moment I started putting my whole self into my decisions and trusting the outcome rather than that same old one track path, I started seeing things in a different light. I realized I wasn't part of the universe anymore, I was my universe. My life was responding to me, rather than I responding to it. I no longer worried about my future or how good of a job I would land when I'm older, instead I worried that I wasn't being my true and best self. Knowing you are fully capable, fully deserving, fully loved, and full of love, being your best self is all you'll ever need to be, the rest takes care of itself, trust me. ;)
Growing up, I thought that I would live that same one track life that everyone else seemed to be living. Be a good kid, go to school, get good grades, go to college, get better grades, go to grad school, get the best grades, and then you might be someone. And growing up, I really didn't see anything wrong with that. I was inducted into the national honor society, captain of my high school ice hockey team, had good friends, got into good schools with both athletic and academic scholarships.. life was good.
I went to Franklin Pierce University of New Hampshire to play on their women's ice hockey team. That's how I made my decision because at 18 the only thing I knew I really loved was hockey. I majored in pre-physical therapy because at 18 it seemed like an awesome career. At 18 I didn't know what the world had to offer me. I knew my family, my friends, what I'd seen on TV, heard on the radio, or saw in my safe little town.
In my one year of college, I became very distracted. I was just barely making it through my classes, I wasn't playing to full capability, I wasn't caring. I wasn't caring because quite frankly, I didn't care. None of it made sense to me. I didn't see the point in going to school for something I didn't love. I had no attachment to my major other than I liked science, working with people, and the idea of lots of money. WOMP WOMP WOMP. How sad. So when I went home for the summer it didn't take me long to decide I was NOT going back. I thought that there just had to be some other way, I couldn't imagine waiting for a piece of paper to start my life. So for two years I worked my butt off between 2 and sometimes 3 jobs to save up money. I wasn't even sure what I was saving for, I just knew I needed to figure something else out.
The moment I started putting my whole self into my decisions and trusting the outcome rather than that same old one track path, I started seeing things in a different light. I realized I wasn't part of the universe anymore, I was my universe. My life was responding to me, rather than I responding to it. I no longer worried about my future or how good of a job I would land when I'm older, instead I worried that I wasn't being my true and best self. Knowing you are fully capable, fully deserving, fully loved, and full of love, being your best self is all you'll ever need to be, the rest takes care of itself, trust me. ;)
